I'm not the average person with the average control

Hate how out of whack my emotions are, especially my temper it usually isn't hard to set me off and I got a bad mentality. I don't process consequence and have no conscience I just see and feel red and it's like mini explosions going off in my head and chest. I'm not the guy to show restraint if someone pissed me off I'm usually first to throw a punch. I legit have no control over my temper and I've tried my whole life to fix it, but it seem the more I tried the angrier the world likes to get me.