Back on my meds
Just a few days taking them after about a week and a half off them (I weaned down with Dr.s OK) and I feel better. I was so angry and sad and chaotic it was no good.
I know from training that trauma changes the brain and while the brain is always plastic to some degree, some changes are permanent. I think my past trauma is too deep and I just need meds to function optimally. It's like any other damaged organ or body part. I wouldn't forgo a prosthetic leg in favor of hopping even if both modes of locomotion technically work. I can live without meds but without meds it's much harder.
I know from training that trauma changes the brain and while the brain is always plastic to some degree, some changes are permanent. I think my past trauma is too deep and I just need meds to function optimally. It's like any other damaged organ or body part. I wouldn't forgo a prosthetic leg in favor of hopping even if both modes of locomotion technically work. I can live without meds but without meds it's much harder.