When I got pregnant I was feeling angry

I was checking whether I will have period for few days but didn't got period for weeks and I was angry for that. After few weeks I started making dream of a baby, buying clothes and shoes for that baby. I seriously started to eat healthy and stopped drinking but I had period after 2 months and I started bleeding so badly in my whole life. I had to be admitted in hospital due to severe annimea. I thought I was having a son and was making dream of him but my life was never easy and will never be easy I guess. My husband was so sad after that and saw weird dream too. Life is not fair I guess but I avoid thinking about that situation. It will just make me cry since it was among one of my broken dreams. I am so saddish person. I am not so fan of myself.