I have a big dream, but haven't worked in 3 years. i'm 32 F.

I'm 32, I've had many jobs. I've done everything from waitressing for a night, call centers, cashier, translator, stay at home girlfriend. I've been through so many jobs i can't remember them all.

I've seen my bank account go up and down.
I've made money selling art.
I've made money from going on dates/dating men ( not on purpose, I just fell into it, and it only happened 2 times.)

I usually jump around jobs every 2-6 months.
I haven't had a job in 3 years. I'm embarrassed to admit my parents pay for my expenses.
I've managed to finish high school (my parents forced us to drop out to make them money, which didn't go as they planned because we were all underage and kids never get paid well)

I'm the only person in my immediate family that graduated.
I had to re-do school from 0. I had to start from kindergarten. Luckily in my country, Elementary school and middle school are free.

I also developed schizophrenia from psychological trauma, lack of nutrients, lack of sleep, and messing with weed, etc to deal with life.

My mental health is better now. I do my best to take care of every aspect of myself.

Right now I'm teaching myself web development among other things. :)
My biggest issue right now is making money.

I don't smoke, don't drink, don't use drugs. . . I don't even date.

My dream is to have a website and a small local shop where i can sell art, ceramic mugs & home decor.

I fantasize giving my loyal clients home made cookies& cakes, and that i host small events where they can look at new artwork, play chess and dance.
I imagine that these people are locals, tourists, and people I've met online.

That's my dream.
I know there will be some kid who will see what I'm trying to build and it will give them strength to find their path in this life.

Sometimes it seems so far away.
Also, my art work is not great, but I'm willing to work my whole life to learn how to make this dream come true.
Sometimes I get so discouraged I can't get out of bed, I can't eat.

I can tell this is what I'm supposed to do. I don't mind working long hours with little to no pay.