I think my heart hurts. Have you ever found yourself wishing for something that you do not know if it's for you?

Too much of the time all I feel is pain, hard to sort it out.

I am beyond the ordinary "wishes" in life though, just cant get the big stuff like how to live why am I alive and what happens now?

Also as we age we and them get blurred, for normal people anyway

so we want always for THEM what we want for ourselves without even noticing thats how it is

and as far as knowing what is for US, ego dissolves as we age, remember I said that please...