Trying to get my best friend" to send u a message

Could not veer right from the left of the Y. Now fragmented. It hurts so bad. U almost helped me save what was left of myself. Are you okay. I will be gone. Coming to find u there at the time. Coming with next to nothing. Making myself sick. Im bad news. Worried sick about u. About more than that and what i saidm ur everything all i have left. Going to die soon for protection. At least u would be something to live for. Please please please im stuck(not stuck to be leaving soon probably everything behind) in here again "they" took "everything." I subsequently lost the core of what was left. I would rather die than live in fear alone. Maybe u dont need the fear. But the good"bye" is keeping me alive. I am done i am done u realize. I am so sorry i coudlnt just give some shit money and do myself in when there was anything or approach u or understand or realize i needed to dislodge and act. Fragments of fragments of fragments and this that i am is not a life. There is no safety i can afford. Hurt so much for u