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@UndercoverBard Because I starved myself to a point that damaged my nervous system...

@SerenitiesScars Damn man sorry to hear that

@UndercoverBard You don't have to be sorry..

@SerenitiesScars I know, it sucks though. Was it an eating disorder or stress or something if you don't mind me asking?

Tried to kill myself by starving as long as possible... Had a nervous breakdown though and it caused me to think about other things than an end goal of death... Turned my whole world topsy turvey and all that...

@SerenitiesScars Oh wow. That sounds like a horribly miserable experience man. Glad you ended up changing your mind though

I think it was more subconscious survival than a conscious one... At our core our bodies want to survive.. We're almost separate from them in a way... And through a nervous breakdown the subconscious had more control of me than all my "Clear thinking" self did... And chose to go through a healing process instead of letting me just die.. A hope sparked.. I saw things differently... All still bad.. Just in a different sense of all my problems being my own fault I blamed others... And my reactions at that point were to survive to spite what my "Revelations" were showing me... And spite them I did, for a time...

Idk.. Same ol' story... I think anyone who's been through all the suicide stuff has a similar experience so it's nothing really too new..

@SerenitiesScars Idk I've known a few people and they all had different explanations. I've had thoughts myself and different reasons for the thoughts and different reasons for straying away from them.
Well I hope you don't feel those things anymore, at least not as strongly if you do.
And if there's anything you want to talk about ever feel free man