Are you where you wanted to be?

@Pinkstarburst why not? Do you still have pending dreams or not anymore?

@MrGomco Well, five years ago I did not dream of being in a job I tolerate because I was fired from the one I loved for political reasons and the death of my boss. I did not dream of the debt I’m in from supplementing living expenses on a credit card. I did not dream of my husband having heart issues and having to call the hospital billing office every time he has a test run to refugee our payment plan. I did not dream of having to deal with a collections office when said bill gets sent to them because I missed a new charge on the $12,000 hospital bill. I did not dream of having to use all but $200 of our savings to have the foundation of my house rebuilt and a new roof put on because the insurance wouldn’t help with massive hail damage. I did not dream of my mental health meds to stop working and trying desperately to find new ones that my insurance will cover. I didn’t dream of it still feeling like I’m insignificant and less of a woman because I could not have nor was I able to adopt a child. I didn’t dream that my life, in the past five years, would have turned me so jaded to the world and on the verge of giving up hope for its future or mine.

So, no. This isn’t what I dreamed five years ago. And, no. I do not dream anymore. Dreams and wishes do not exist. Breathing in and out every day exists. I exist. And that’s all I do.