I'm a Man - Not a Game

Sometimes I
by: Rob Paquin

Fictitious worlds inside my head
Living, breathing, in words I've said
I'll keep on dreaming until I'm dead
I'll keep on feeding that Hope I fed

I try to get better everyday
I try and I try, and sometimes I sway
Falling apart, or Falling away
But still I wake to fight another day

Fighting for that dream that's mine
And though I'm no closer, still I climb
To the top of the mountains there in my mind
Hoping for a gentle path down; Behind

Sometimes it feels like I get closer
Sometimes I feel like I'm just a joker
Sometimes I feel like I'm just a poser
Sometimes I feel like life just runs me over

I make my wishes and watch them fail
Wasting wishes; Wasting feels
Wasted thoughts ride off the rails
As this train of thought derails

Still, I work to be a better man
I make my way, and make my plans
I stride forward and don't make demands
I just plant my feet and take my stand

And though I'll never wear a crown
And though this world might strike me down
And though too many people think I'm a clown
And though I often wear this frown

I'm here to say that I'll burn bridges
Living my life as I feel I should live it
So, judge away, as your judgement misses
Or turn your back, to my persiflage's

I can be ignored or cast away
I can be loved or sent astray
I can be me in my own way
But forgotten isn't something that stays

I have an inner strength that's fueled by fire
I have all of these wants and even more desires
I have a million dreams that dream of higher
Don't need nothing you deem required

Because if everything just leaves or fades
I shall move forward and make my way
And when people look back on the way they played
They'll realize - I'm a man - Not a game !

~The Snowdog