I don't like today

I don't like that I had to tell my brother his friend and the kid we grew up with killed himself. I don't like listening to my mom and his mom who are bestfriends cry. She's currently on vaction because today is the one year anniversary of the death of her husband. She's stuck over there and is trying to get a flight back. It's just a lot of people calling and crying today. Everyone keeps telling me its okay if I want to cry. I guess I just understand what it's like to be that depressed.