friends, there is a person who is the closest I have ever come to a friend online. I am not going to name names, and I would ask that he not comment or react to this post to keep this post as anonymous as possible. 🙂
Our interactions on the last 2 accounts I had before this, which I closed each time I left, have been hard on him, (or at least annoying) I am sure. Although he has never given any indication that this is true. I have pushed him away more times than I can count. Yet, he remains patient with me every time. 😔
I honestly don't understand this. I have even blocked him; he blocks me in return. I unblock him when I am less crazy, and he unblocks me. Then he interacts with me again. I find myself very grateful for his kindness and his patience and his forgiveness, but I have to be extremely careful not to feel any closeness because this is what makes me push him away.😔
I am crazy. Really, really crazy, and not in the cool way some people are. Yet, for some reason, he is still kind to me. 🤷♀
This scares me a lot, but I am always so happy to interact (only in the public areas) with him, and I am glad he is still here. 🙂
