Reality sucks so much

I don't want comments like "touch the grass" under this post. My parents readed those "internet makes child depressed" books and now they want to took away my phone but it isn't this thing who makes me more anxious. My phone comforts me everyday I know in internet are people who make me laught, comfortable itc I am scared also of losing all my friends for don't anwsering them. IT ISN'T MY PHONE FAULT THAT I HAVE ANXIETY REALLY STOP WITHOUT IT I WILL BE SO BORED OR WORSE YOU WOULDN'T LIKE TO SEE ME SAD, NOT LAUGHING AND OTHERS RIGHT?