I Think Good Friends Are Rare

@Moonlight I agree completely that is why cheating hurts so much because they wouldn't have done that if they truly loved you.

Because you then get all the special moments replayed in your head when thye pulled you closer and told you how much they cared for you but honestly they only "Care" about you until they don't need you anymore and can happily move on while you're still stuck headfirst in love with the person.

You seem like a really great person and I hope you mean what you say because right now I am having a hard time believing a damn thing anyone says because they can say it in the moment and actually truly believe it but give it a few months or years and see if they truly meant it....I guess that's why it takes me so long to fully trust someone.

@Moonlight Exactly.....What hurts the most though is that they try to make excuses to justify why they are leaving because you are not worth the truth...I'd never stop fighting for someone I love but there is one thing I know that I'd never get over ans that is cheating....That is the one thing that can destroy my love for someone, I wish to find that person who won't stop fighting for me even though I can be a bit of an idiot at times and cause stupid little arguments but not everyone is perfect.

@Melkor I know, and it can kill from the inside. But that's better than living with lies no? Even if it hurts that much. Thank you! You too, really. And yes, I really mean it. I feel you, it's hard for me to fully trust people too cuz I'm afraid that they will hurt me, tell my secrets someone else and just will betray me. Or that they don't really need me and stuff. I have really many fears.

@Moonlight My life is a vicious circle xD I get paranoid that people are going to leave me or that they are getting bored of me so I question them about it and they say I am silly and my instinct is wrong but then guess what? they leave I don't want to believe my instinct because I want to trust the person I am in love with but honestly.....the pain of them leaving really isn't worth it.

Melkor So they aren't worth you and that means that you will find someone the way better. And yeah I know cheating is the worst. But I believe that when your truly in love you won't cheat on that person and im sure that you will find that person even if you really can be a bit of an idiot at times, cuz at the end we all find our happiness.

Really? I understand what you say, but if someone will really love you that person won't leave you and will show that.

Yeah I wish I could find someone too