I lost my friends when I expected them to do what I've been willing to do for them.

@BetweenKittensandRiots Edited it haha

More of...I lost them because I wished they'd do what I was willing to do for them.

@Casheyane Well I saw your little thing about a date and honestly I'm sorry no ones been willing to dig into your past.

To be honest I'd take you up on it except am very you know, romantically engaged to someone else it's just that we don't really have a monogamous contract but I know from experience not everyone is as open minded as her but yeah it's kinda package deal cause I won't give her up for basically anyone- at this point I'm not really looking for "Better." in the sense that even in unlikely event I found "Better" better would have to claw her way through all the efort of building all that with me, I'm more of a romantic growth sort. So no one has been with me as long so she has a vdry long headstart....

it's just You know, I keep an eye out to see whats out there.

@BetweenKittensandRiots can I give you an advice? Your choice if you want to listen.

If you think you have something worth keeping then you owe it to them and yourself to not look elsewhere. Instead look for ways of how you can be better for them. :)

@Casheyane I don't really care about any of that.

I don't like monogamy never really did.

just because society tries to indoctoriante us all into thinking its the ideal relationship doesn't mean it works on us all. Alternative lifestyles have bad representation in the media so I can understand why you'd feel that way but it's simply not.

aside it's not really my decision, she's the one who has more than one.

@Casheyane I did what to convey sentiment though, she has encouraged me to put myself out there and keep looking.

The girl is doing something i've always dreamed about and playing you know cheerleader to the idea of my seducing other women. nobodies ever loved me like that....