What do you do when a friend doesn’t support you?
I’m always there for her. When she talks about being sad I try my best to help her.
I was saying last night I was worried because my depression for a while now has only happened because of a clear reason and it’s been very fragmented, as in it’s bad one day and then fine for a long stretch of time until something bad happens. But lately it’s been constant and I haven’t felt like this in a long time—where feeling depressed is in every waking moment and won’t go away.
And she said something completely off topic in response, which told me she didn’t care, so I told her that. She told me I’m “always depressed” which is wrong, and she said I “never listen to her” which is also wrong. She’s kinda depressive so I help her. So I guess she’s not there for me like I am for her. She also tells me my relationship with Elliot is super negative (which it is but I can’t leave him) and that my girlfriend sucks (which makes me mad that she says that).
She’s also schizophrenic and has the independence of a child (“nobody’s helping me” is her favorite phrase and she flips out often because she can’t do much on her own; sometimes I kinda feel like I should get some money for my services or I feel like saying “it’s your homework I’m not doing it for you” which would piss her off so much that I’m scared to say it) so she probably can’t reason well enough anyway, even though I think she’s taking medication. I think she also has generalized anxiety disorder worse than mine. Idk, for me my anxiety tends to turn into depression and self-hatred anyway. Also unrelated but I really feel like I can’t deal today I want to sleep for the rest of the day and not take my Calculus test tomorrow
I was saying last night I was worried because my depression for a while now has only happened because of a clear reason and it’s been very fragmented, as in it’s bad one day and then fine for a long stretch of time until something bad happens. But lately it’s been constant and I haven’t felt like this in a long time—where feeling depressed is in every waking moment and won’t go away.
And she said something completely off topic in response, which told me she didn’t care, so I told her that. She told me I’m “always depressed” which is wrong, and she said I “never listen to her” which is also wrong. She’s kinda depressive so I help her. So I guess she’s not there for me like I am for her. She also tells me my relationship with Elliot is super negative (which it is but I can’t leave him) and that my girlfriend sucks (which makes me mad that she says that).
She’s also schizophrenic and has the independence of a child (“nobody’s helping me” is her favorite phrase and she flips out often because she can’t do much on her own; sometimes I kinda feel like I should get some money for my services or I feel like saying “it’s your homework I’m not doing it for you” which would piss her off so much that I’m scared to say it) so she probably can’t reason well enough anyway, even though I think she’s taking medication. I think she also has generalized anxiety disorder worse than mine. Idk, for me my anxiety tends to turn into depression and self-hatred anyway. Also unrelated but I really feel like I can’t deal today I want to sleep for the rest of the day and not take my Calculus test tomorrow
