Am I the only one who needs and wants to make friends, but at the same time, wants to stay home alone?

I guess what I'm trying to say is, I want to skip the awkward stage of making the friend, and fast-forward to actually being friends, calling them up to go do such and such with, sharing about life etc...

I started a meetup group in real life, and we are going to a play soon. I don't want to go .
Then one of the girls suggested we meet up before-hand to have lunch, again, I don't want to go, because I have fun things I can do alone, Netflix, read, play sims etc.

But I need friends and hate when there is something cool that I want to do and have no one.
I want friends, not acquaintances but you can't make a friend without getting to know them..
ugh, am I crazy?