Is it just me or do people truly not understand me?

@Really No. You've grossly misinterpreted what I wrote. Firstly, I never said anyone should feel bad that they see not through my acting. Just the contrary, a partial purpose of this question was to ameliorate this issue so my friends and family wouldn't have to suffer if and when I mentally break due to my acting.

Secondly, it is not acting around eccentricities I am talking about; I am talking about acting that general (or even - universal) human griefs do not hurt you. Your crush rejects you; you get fired; you get aggresively criticised in front of an audience - these distress everybody, yet you act as if they don't distress you.
But you expect people to know, don't you? Of course you are distressed due to these things - you're no machine. When behaving as if these problems do not distress you, it is supposed to be *implied* that it's an acting, with such and such purposes and messages.

Say your crush rejects you. However, you just tell your friend this don't distress yo; you do this because you don't want to make a big deal out of it. Let's talk about something else while having our tea, amirite? I'll be fine, it'll pass. I want no comfortings. Yet this doesn't mean you can joke around with me how she probably has a smarter and better looking guy going around for her; not needlessly. I will get over the rejection, but that still doesn't mean such talk doesn't have a bad influence on my self-esteem. Noone should wear kid gloves whilst interacting with me; I just want some basic acknowledgement that I, too, have emotions.

Everything you said on your group therapy experience is interesting,but hardly relevant to this. I love my friends; I love my family. The partial purpose of my acting is that they be in the better mood than they'd be otherwise. But I don't want them to not know who I am; how should I balance this? I want my friends to be as worriless; but I don't want to feel alone.

I hope you've now come to understand better what I was trying to say.

@Boallods YOu said "The partial purpose of my acting is that they be in the better mood than they'd be otherwise. But I don't want them to not know who I am; how should I balance this? I want my friends to be as worriless; but I don't want to feel alone.

I hope you've now come to understand better what I was trying to say."

Maybe somewhat, but I see that you're wanting to control the feelings of others (and thus their behavior toward you) by hiding your true feelings from them. To some extent we all do this, but "How do we balance this?" - It seems from what you've said that you're unhappy with the balance you've struck. You have to either keep it or change it, no?

I've no wish to argue with you about it though; just thought maybe I could encourage you to look at your own part in it and see whether you wanted to change it. I won't go on about it (unless you want to keep talking.)