Why am I still struggling?

Why is it that I’ve been meeting with therapists since the 2nd grade and I currently see 3 different therapists along with a pschopharmacologist and things for me are only getting worse. Every year I feel depressed and constantly angry in the Springtime and for the past 4 years I’ve been hospitalized for these feelings. I can’t bear to have it happen again... for a 5th time.