I might have made a new friend and keep around my other friends

Her name is Marissa Voelger. She is almost 58 same age as my parents pretty much. She is the mother of a 20 year old and 14 year old daughters. She knows I’m intersex ( she knows the term hermaphroditism) and have mental illnesses like depression, anxiety, ptsd, and schizophrenia. But still accepts me and is looking forward to having a walking partner and getting together. She lives right in my neighborhood. She is a freelance makeup artist and cosmetologist. She actually pulled over in her car to say hello to me and check in when she saw me walking up the street. She is more community driven and neighborly like helping take care of a 90 something year old neighbor a couple of decades ago when a younger mother and styling her hair at the house when she could no longer come to the salon. I like her. She has Christian values but more of the it’s not my place to judge others and even if I disagree with something keep your opinions to yourself type of person because she does not think it’s her right to put anyone in their place. I have met a few genuine loving Christians who go by the adage of not judging others. She knows what non binary is so she is not. Completely out of the loop. When I added her to my contacts. It said add phone number email. And add pronouns . I thought add pronouns? I must have. Said that out loud because she said yes that’s for non binary people. She said sometimes it gets a little. Frustrating when folks don’t want to be what god made them but she respects people’s wishes. She’s a nice lady. She said people are civil and polite and sometimes. Briefly talk out and about on her walks with her dog tootsie but she doesn’t know most people’s names she knows a couple of people like a neighbor. John and such but hasn’t really made good friends in the neighborhood overall. She said maybe I’m just more outgoing than some others so I told her if she wants to have a walking partner sometimes and get together for tea. Or something I would be open to that. She seemed enthusiastic. She said if you don’t talk to people you don’t get to know them well and say something happened and I asked for help say Ashley could you call so and so for me because she got hurt or something. The neighbor John. An eighty one year old. Gave me vegetables from his garden. I guess I like the olden ways where people. Watch out for each other and you can make friends with at least one or. Two of your neighbors. I am an introvert but a more social one almost an ambivert. I don’t like being suspicious. All the time even if I can be a bit paranoid due to my parents putting ideas in my head about everyone staring. At me because of my clothing choices and just being an anxious. Person. I got no red flags off Marissa and the general vibe. I got was positive. You know people will say hi and chat a little bit but sometimes I would just like to be invited for snacks and.beverages or a meal and just to talk about life, philosophical insights and revelations, and a bunch of stuff. I like hospitable people who like to include.others. Marissa talked to me first while I was walking two days ago. I do well by myself. But sometimes I like interacting. One on one or in small groups. I am hanging out with Robert. Tomorrow my friend and he asked if it would be ok to see me at the end of this week. He is a good person and tells me facts about ecology. He is more introverted than I am but it’s a nice balance. I don’t want to lose his friendship even if he doesn’t have many hobbies and doesn’t have many favorite anything except Jurassic park. He can be a bit boring at times but he makes up for it with his easy going nature and kind heart. He is non judgmental. He knows what I am intersex woman, Romani, a young woman with. Mental illness including depression, anxiety, schizophrenia, and ptsd. He knows I don’t work and have yet to finish my courses that would lead to at least. Part time work. Flexible schedule. Remote work. He knows I’m on supplemental. Security income disability benefits. He still accepts me and so I accept him. He is a good friend and is trustworthy with no shenanigans. Of trying for romance and sex. Actually my guy friends from similar worlds have also been great: Ankur, Chester, mark, Bobby. They have been good friends with no hidden ulterior motives. They in addition to Robert have made me believe again. Guys and girls can just be friends. Unlike a couple. Of guy friends in the past who were. Trying their luck with me ( Ashok,osman etc.) not Hari. Even if I am found attractive or beautiful my guy friends on similar worlds and Robert are there for me as friends. I don’t mind being told I’m cute or beautiful or sound cute or beautiful . But I thank god everyday none of my male friends here or Robert have any other ideas in their. Heads. They have reached a mature understanding of being genuine friends. With a girl. Of course they are older and maybe that helps. Robert is only 34. But Bobby is 40, Chester is 48, mark is 55 and Ankur.is 37. Now I don’t think everyone wants to date or sleep with me but it’s nice having good friends with no hidden motives. I’m not one of those arrogant vain people that thinks everyone wants to date or sleep with me but in the past some of my male friends tried to turn things romantic and sexual which I did not appreciate. And I was taken and they. Knew that. Even if I was not taken, I still. Did not like it and had to end supposed friendships. It’s refreshing to be talked to and viewed as a genuine friend. I can tell them personal stuff without fear it would be interpreted the wrong way. I’m just grateful is all. Things have not panned out. With Felicia Sousa. And Brianna. Lamoureux with getting together and making new friends through Nextdoor app. Felicia. Was very excited and enthusiastic. In the beginning but she is having problems with her renters apartment and a bunch of other stuff. Brianna no longer wanted to talk after her mother in law. Upset and came between her and her husband. Brianna has milder intellectual disabilities. My friend Robert even got me a sketchpad and colored pencils for my birthday. He doesn’t have many opinions or favorite stuff and doesn’t have. Many hobbies but he’s a good guy. He took me out to colt state park, chick filet or fila, and for frozen yogurt tonight and paid for my meal because me I paid last time and it was for my birthday. He fishes and hikes sometimes in the summer. My good friend can be awkward and sometimes walks ahead of me a little bit at the park or on the beach and it is like hey keep pace with me please but he lets me pick usually where we go. I feel grateful to have this somewhat awkward guy in my life. He thinks before he speaks and really. Only speaks when he has something to say. He is more introverted than I am but as I repeated before it makes a nice balance because he is a good. Listener even he always says “ yeah sure” and “yeah maybe.” He knows some of my dark secrets and still cares about me anyway and still is my friend. He is a day by day person and does not worry about the future so I think he is a sensor. It was his idea to see me this week and he asked if it would be ok to see me at the end of this week. Ironically I met him at a park two years ago almost while he was fishing and talked to him because I was curious about him. We spent almost six hours tonight including. The ride to the park and the ride home which was like 35-40 minutes each way. Maybe my luck is changing. Though I have all these friends I still miss Sujeet kumal jha who was my ex boyfriend and best friend still after we broke up. I will always. Miss him no matter what because he was my soulmate just about. It’s hard to move on but I have no choice because he moved on without me even as a friend. I lost his friendship and that hurts most of all.