I only have one friend irl.

I don't make much of an effort to see her and stuff. And I guess it's because i've been mostly alone. And relied on myself, to entertain myself, and understand myself. Since it's hard to find ppl that just get me. Or don't just instantly hate me for being distant. And I'm subconsciously worried about her getting tired of it and finding a new bestie lmao.

But she keeps sticking around. Even though she complains a lot. Like she's persistent with me, and never waivers. And I'm like..."is this what a friend is?" And I didn't ask but she said "I'm not going anywhere" and now I'm crying lmao.