I have seen you before and now I know what to do

More than ten years ago I had a friend that I loved more than anyone and that friend betrayed me in the worst way possible and to this day I am still going through that betrayal. That is a story for another time but at last I have seen him again but this time in my roommate. After he betrayed me I cried and I felt so sad and then I felt feelings of hate and wish I never met him but you want to know what the truth is? The truth is he should have respected my boundaries but he was able to break those boundaries by telling me that we were like brother and by telling me "no secrets".

So this roommate like this friend loves me and she talks as if we are going to be friends forever the truth is I do not want to be friends with her forever the truth is in the next couple of months I plan to move and I know she would want to follow and she can but not as roommates she can be my neighbor or something like that but I have to get away from her she will destroy me I feel like I have let her into my life so much I just got to take her hooks out of me and I got to press forward without her. I do like her but we need space we need distance and the truth is our relationship should remain that way because we just aren't compatible people but just because we are not compatible doesn't mean that I don't like her it doesn't mean that I don't care about her but what it does mean is that I need some space.