idk anymore

it's been a while since i've rlly vented, but i introduced my bsf to my 2 other bsf and they started bonding, don't get me wrong i was glad that they get along and stuff but i started to feel left out and stuff. everytime they seem to be close it bothers me bc i end up feeling left out, idk how to tell anyone abt this bc i don't wanna seem like a jerk gatekeeping my friends. it just scares me that i might be replaced and stuff. we planned to maybe go to the mall next saturday and idk what to do, i just said "oaky" bc idk what else i could've said. idk why i feel this way bc i want them to be close and for her to be part of our friendship, but it just makes me mad and want to cry abjsdkml