First day I don’t take any kind of substance not even cbd or melatonin

No cigarettes 🚭for a week or more no pills no serotonin no nothing
I cried a lot finally cus I had a knot in my heart for so long .. I just want to be me again I been asking for a miracle . Today I had some sushi 🍙then I played some tara mantras for the first time in months that Helped me shower and clean my room then went with my mom to the park for the first time showed her my favorite trees and my night walk we walked a long way + she was wearing sandals🥹 🩴 I’m thankful for this and that I helped her build the Christmas tree 🎄 and then we went to Starbucks for a treat 🥐, then played some guitar fae vibes to bless my room so I will try to sleep natural tonight tho it’s tempting to have the melatonin gummy 🍬that tastes of cherry and gives you vivid dreams and hypnotizes you to sleep . 🤞🏻 the side effects of the melatonin gummy sucks too so I shall hesitate 🙀 goodnight
I was really scared all morning then it got better slowly right now I feel so peaceful
I know i will be ok eventually but I feel in a rush to be one with my soul completely again and have fun like i always do finding happiness in the little things and then soon I will feel ready to hike again
Glad my cat is still alive he’s been thru all the worse and the best moments always loyal like a fairy lion, he’s a true Viking and a little kingy .
Im so sensitive and compassionate this days all hurts specially love. Life is so fragile…🌊 ok so this are the seeds that turnt my brain upside down which I’m recovering from they are called Hawaiian baby wood rose