They know no grey.. and the world is nothing but grey
So… I get a message from a high school mate..
It was on FB.. A platform that I don’t use often.. but I do see messages received there.. but i am not too active or responsive there..
We were never close..
If anything.. I was a nerd.. and while she was not too cool.. I think she was too cool for the nerd I was I guess? I mean.. Honestly not sure.. With high school standards, anyone who is not academically advanced is considered more cool automatically.. So yea.. I was doomed not to be cool, by default.. But I am 35 year old now, so who cares about being cool?
She asks me obvious questions such as, have you immigrated etc? Obvious, because she has always viewed my stories since I moved to Canada..
I respond to her messages very kindly and emotionally…
She asks me why I moved?
I have a very logical reason for her.. (other than cultural and religious)
I never tried one bit to deny all the good I had, living there, where I used to live..
I sort of appreciated her message to be honest.. it just felt nice to be contacted by someone who I was not close to when we were physically very close.. but now, that we are exactly on opposite directions on the planet, after years of no contact (noy that we ever had contact) , she makes the efforts. I appreciated that.
So I was very kind in all my responses..
She says: you changed.
I make a joke: like you knew me to begin with to be able to tell I changed?
But I knew what she meant.. to them, I have changed.. Even if she was not a friend.. She sort of knew who I was (publicly) .. But I was living a double life, and this, my current life, is the secret life I was living for years.. so when they say I have changed.. I really have not..
Anyhow.. this convo lasts weeks because I was not promptly responding..
Today, i was posting on instagram that I was drinking. .
After that, I messaged her back(responded to an old message) … we had some messages but a the end, she said, whatever you do, please don’t drink ..
I responded kindly to that .. I could have said.. ha ha.. I am an atheist, who cares?
But I knew she was as coming from a good place..
It is just funny though.. life is funny.. the nerd is drinking.. the cool person is advising against drinking .. too much dispersion?
I guess high school measures are not really that accurate..
Today’s game though let me have some convos with people who used to view my stories silently..
The second interaction..
It is an Egyptian classmate from high school too , but this one, I actually knew more closely than the first one.. and she was a bit surprised, you support Egypt?!! Good for you!!
Why the phuk was she surprised?! I have no phuking idea.. especially that she is Egyptian.. so I have always leaned onto my Egyptian side wit her.. I turn more Egyptian naturally with Egyptians.. so Why would you be surprised that I support Egypt.. unless if you think because I immigrated and I drink.. or whatever.. I became completely alienated…
This is absolutely what I don’t like about the Arab world.. they know no grey.. and the world is nothing but grey…
It was on FB.. A platform that I don’t use often.. but I do see messages received there.. but i am not too active or responsive there..
We were never close..
If anything.. I was a nerd.. and while she was not too cool.. I think she was too cool for the nerd I was I guess? I mean.. Honestly not sure.. With high school standards, anyone who is not academically advanced is considered more cool automatically.. So yea.. I was doomed not to be cool, by default.. But I am 35 year old now, so who cares about being cool?
She asks me obvious questions such as, have you immigrated etc? Obvious, because she has always viewed my stories since I moved to Canada..
I respond to her messages very kindly and emotionally…
She asks me why I moved?
I have a very logical reason for her.. (other than cultural and religious)
I never tried one bit to deny all the good I had, living there, where I used to live..
I sort of appreciated her message to be honest.. it just felt nice to be contacted by someone who I was not close to when we were physically very close.. but now, that we are exactly on opposite directions on the planet, after years of no contact (noy that we ever had contact) , she makes the efforts. I appreciated that.
So I was very kind in all my responses..
She says: you changed.
I make a joke: like you knew me to begin with to be able to tell I changed?
But I knew what she meant.. to them, I have changed.. Even if she was not a friend.. She sort of knew who I was (publicly) .. But I was living a double life, and this, my current life, is the secret life I was living for years.. so when they say I have changed.. I really have not..
Anyhow.. this convo lasts weeks because I was not promptly responding..
Today, i was posting on instagram that I was drinking. .
After that, I messaged her back(responded to an old message) … we had some messages but a the end, she said, whatever you do, please don’t drink ..
I responded kindly to that .. I could have said.. ha ha.. I am an atheist, who cares?
But I knew she was as coming from a good place..
It is just funny though.. life is funny.. the nerd is drinking.. the cool person is advising against drinking .. too much dispersion?
I guess high school measures are not really that accurate..
Today’s game though let me have some convos with people who used to view my stories silently..
The second interaction..
It is an Egyptian classmate from high school too , but this one, I actually knew more closely than the first one.. and she was a bit surprised, you support Egypt?!! Good for you!!
Why the phuk was she surprised?! I have no phuking idea.. especially that she is Egyptian.. so I have always leaned onto my Egyptian side wit her.. I turn more Egyptian naturally with Egyptians.. so Why would you be surprised that I support Egypt.. unless if you think because I immigrated and I drink.. or whatever.. I became completely alienated…
This is absolutely what I don’t like about the Arab world.. they know no grey.. and the world is nothing but grey…
31-35, F
