Potato being potato.. dull potato
So today, I was intending to go to downtown Toronto .. Why? No reason really.. I just felt the need to do something, go far, and push myself to try a new experience. So I looked up where the metro station would be, it is a walking distance .. Deep down I did not feel like taking the metro, but I was forcing myself.
To reach the station, I had to walk through a park! Which has been the case anywhere I go so far.. The map is always leading me to walk through parks which on its own feels amusing..
Only when I reached the area of the station, I realised that it was filled with shops, cafes and markets, unlike the other side I took yesterday, which was all houses. I naturally found myself walking by the station and just exploring the area. I just felt since there is much to explore here, what's the need to go downtown.. I enjoyed the fact that there were a lot of people, cars, and shops.. Yes I am a loner who likes nature and quietness, but I've lived my entire life in the city.. Actually where I come from, the concept of suburban vs city doesn't exist much since we don't have vast areas, so most people live in the city really.. I am used to crowded streets and noise.. So being new to the entire country, and already feeling lonely and weird; seeing such quiet and empty streets yesterday filled me with a lot of strange and cold feelings... Maybe I'd enjoy it later once I am used to this life..
I spotted a very small cafe with a French name (yes I know some french 🥔😎), I figured let's try it as it looked a bit charming from the outside. When I entered, there was a guy playing the guitar and singing (in English), although the lovey dovey songs he sang were not really my style, I still enjoyed his music and I took off my headphones (I also thought it was a bit rude to be wearing headphones while he was playing lol).. Their food and coffee were very tasty.. As usual, I always find french cafes to be way nicer than the rest.. Then the guy was joined by two old people and they all seemed like a group of musicians or something..
They were a very polite & kind group that engaged me in some of their conversations (probably out of politness) since it was only me in the cafe.. When I told them I had only landed two days ago they seemed surprised, I got cocky inside my head; huh look at you, fitting in and all 🥔😎 .. then she sang in Italian, the language resembled french, but I knew it was not french so I asked her, and talking about languages, I ended up saying that I am learning french, only to realise that the this guy playing the guitar teaches french. I mean what are the chances when you are bragging about your poor french skills, you realise that you are sitting with a French teacher!! 🤦♀️🥔 In my head I was like; SHUT UP, DON'T YOU EVER SAY TO PEOPLE THAT YOU ARE LEARNING FRENCH. NOW HE WILL START TALKING TO YOU IN FRENCH 🤦♀️ Thankfully no one spoke to me in french 🥴 and I instantly emphasized that I am only an A2 level 🤣
As opposed to yesterday, I really enjoyed my time today.. Although I was only 15 minutes away from where I live, and it wasn't anything special, just strolling in the park and sitting in a simple cafe listening to music.. Tomorrow is my last chance to visit downtown because I am leaving after that with a tour, but I genuinely just want to visit that cafe again tomorrow..
It might sound boring and weird to most people, that I would just spend my time like this on vacation, but I really think the bottom line is that I should enjoy what I am doing, instead of pushing myself to do something else just for the sake of doing it 🤷♀️ Maybe I am a boring simple person after all, what am I gonna do about it 🤷♀️ and to console myself for being dull, I keep telling myself that I have an organised tour in every city coming up, with some cool stuff, and these should count as something different, and will also have me meet people, and so basically get me out of my comfort zone, as this is what I have been trying to do all along..
So I shouldn't pressure myself to do more.. Since I am already feeling a mountain of weird feelings that are a mixture of guilt, strangeness and pressure.. Maybe it is a good idea to curl up in my comfort zone a little, too.
To reach the station, I had to walk through a park! Which has been the case anywhere I go so far.. The map is always leading me to walk through parks which on its own feels amusing..
Only when I reached the area of the station, I realised that it was filled with shops, cafes and markets, unlike the other side I took yesterday, which was all houses. I naturally found myself walking by the station and just exploring the area. I just felt since there is much to explore here, what's the need to go downtown.. I enjoyed the fact that there were a lot of people, cars, and shops.. Yes I am a loner who likes nature and quietness, but I've lived my entire life in the city.. Actually where I come from, the concept of suburban vs city doesn't exist much since we don't have vast areas, so most people live in the city really.. I am used to crowded streets and noise.. So being new to the entire country, and already feeling lonely and weird; seeing such quiet and empty streets yesterday filled me with a lot of strange and cold feelings... Maybe I'd enjoy it later once I am used to this life..
I spotted a very small cafe with a French name (yes I know some french 🥔😎), I figured let's try it as it looked a bit charming from the outside. When I entered, there was a guy playing the guitar and singing (in English), although the lovey dovey songs he sang were not really my style, I still enjoyed his music and I took off my headphones (I also thought it was a bit rude to be wearing headphones while he was playing lol).. Their food and coffee were very tasty.. As usual, I always find french cafes to be way nicer than the rest.. Then the guy was joined by two old people and they all seemed like a group of musicians or something..
They were a very polite & kind group that engaged me in some of their conversations (probably out of politness) since it was only me in the cafe.. When I told them I had only landed two days ago they seemed surprised, I got cocky inside my head; huh look at you, fitting in and all 🥔😎 .. then she sang in Italian, the language resembled french, but I knew it was not french so I asked her, and talking about languages, I ended up saying that I am learning french, only to realise that the this guy playing the guitar teaches french. I mean what are the chances when you are bragging about your poor french skills, you realise that you are sitting with a French teacher!! 🤦♀️🥔 In my head I was like; SHUT UP, DON'T YOU EVER SAY TO PEOPLE THAT YOU ARE LEARNING FRENCH. NOW HE WILL START TALKING TO YOU IN FRENCH 🤦♀️ Thankfully no one spoke to me in french 🥴 and I instantly emphasized that I am only an A2 level 🤣
As opposed to yesterday, I really enjoyed my time today.. Although I was only 15 minutes away from where I live, and it wasn't anything special, just strolling in the park and sitting in a simple cafe listening to music.. Tomorrow is my last chance to visit downtown because I am leaving after that with a tour, but I genuinely just want to visit that cafe again tomorrow..
It might sound boring and weird to most people, that I would just spend my time like this on vacation, but I really think the bottom line is that I should enjoy what I am doing, instead of pushing myself to do something else just for the sake of doing it 🤷♀️ Maybe I am a boring simple person after all, what am I gonna do about it 🤷♀️ and to console myself for being dull, I keep telling myself that I have an organised tour in every city coming up, with some cool stuff, and these should count as something different, and will also have me meet people, and so basically get me out of my comfort zone, as this is what I have been trying to do all along..
So I shouldn't pressure myself to do more.. Since I am already feeling a mountain of weird feelings that are a mixture of guilt, strangeness and pressure.. Maybe it is a good idea to curl up in my comfort zone a little, too.
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