God Removed This Man's Urge to Drink
MICHAEL'S TESTIMONY OF HOW GOD DELIVERED HIM FROM ALCOHOL
"I am an alcoholic, who has struggled since age 18. From age 18 to 22 I drank very heavily, going through bottles of wine daily, on top of vodka, rum, or whatever I could get my hands on. The past few years have been largely dry for me, with the exception of a few periods of binge drinking. I still call myself an alcoholic because every day since I was 18, I battled a voice in my head telling me to drink, even when I don't feel that I want to. Recently, my drinking was becoming a problem again. I began getting drunk nightly, drunk in the tub, experiencing some health effects, etc. I was finding drinking hard to stop. I felt like shit every night after drinking. I would dread having to drink again, but would do it anyway, because my brain would trick me into thinking that this drink would be different.
I have been praying to God all year, and for the first time in my life, was starting to lose some faith. This whole year it feels like God has gone silent on me. I used to pray regularly, could feel him all day, every day. Now, he never has conversations with me. Every day I pray to God to free me from alcoholism, but I still find myself slipping into the same patterns.
This past month, something strange happened. I got home from work and suddenly realized I hadn't thought about drinking all day. I pictured getting drunk in my head, my usual romanticized fantasies of good drunk times I had many years ago...and felt nothing. I felt no urge to drink.
The past few weeks, I have been wondering what is wrong with me. Why don't I want to drink anymore? Where has the urge gone? All I ever want to do is party, and when presented with an opportunity, I passed! I simply feel no drive to drink, at all. This will sound insane...but I almost felt like I should drink because it was not normal for me to not want to drink. But then I didn't drink, of course, because the idea of it exhausts and bores me!!
Then, today, it hit me like a ton of bricks. God has not gone silent on me. He heard my prayers, and he answered me. God freed me from the urge to drink. I will stay mindful, but I can honestly say I feel a whole burden has been lifted from my shoulders. The constant nagging voice in my head to drink has been silenced."
Thank you, God for delivering Michael!!
