Are you a drinker, did you quit then how did you quit and what was the reason for drinking and quitting?

I was not a drinker. I got really drunk on purpose on one of my breakup which was in my workplace. The breakup was worse since I had to see that dickhead regularly in the same working place so I chose that day to drink whatever I can then I danced like a psycho bitch. That was the first time I know how being drunk feels like then slowly I started drinking and drinking and drinking. Drinking felt like a escape from daily stress and struggle. Specially after getting married and after too many struggle, I only saw alcohol as the medicine to forget about every bullshit of life. Sometimes I feel ashamed to be female and drunk because females are supposed to be gentle, elegant and beautiful not ugly shameless drunkard but its like hearts wants what it wants when I know it is not good for my heart neither for my body. Its been 6 days I am not drinking but I crave during night time and feels good at morning waking up without being drunk and chose not to drink last night. I dont know up to when I can maintain this habit but I want to.