24 hours now till i have money again

This is the last time i swear that i'll be run out before my monthly installments come in. The life saving service i'm on requested stuff recently, my file under review, so on the off chance my life saving thing is over, i'll be jumping in front of a truck on the highway, i rapidly shared this with dad a couple evenings ago, and it went right over his head, you see if i had a living faith in God, i'd not worry about money.