Venting out

Hello, its been a while since my last post, but I need to vent out, I am so fucking desperate and I don't see my way out, my fckin stupid head got me into huge debts and my salary covers 90 percent of it, but I can't cover expenses with other ten and I have the most beautiful girl ever that is 9m old and I don't know how I am supposed to cope with all that, if she is not with me, I wouldn't have any reason to live, especially since we lost her mommy during delivery, I just can't, and the worst thing ever is that, that my debts are ridicoulus to someone (3000$) but for me, that is devastating and I don't have any help from families at all, I really don't knkw what to fxkin do, really don't😭😭😭