What surprised me about our cuckold lifestyle

It's definitely the Cuckold angst, the feeling of sitting at home knowing she out on a date. Wondering where they went to dinner, who might of seen them. Are they showing affection in public. Are they back at his house yet? Or are they dancing at a club. When they get back to his house, how long does it take them to start making out, fondling each other, are they having sex yet, how are they doing it etc. Is she going to text me she's on her way home or is she going to say she's staying the night. It is by far the best feelings my mind I can imagine. The mind is a very amazing thing. To me it's more erotic than having sex with her when she does return, and hearing about what really happened.