The more I do it…
I have always loved self wetting, but for me, shitting myself was a latent desire which didn’t emerge until adulthood. But when I did start to mess myself it was mostly in public places like walking home from a night out. And once I started to use my pants as my pants as my toilet the desire just grew.
One memory is going to the supermarket, knowing I would mess myself. I put on a diaper, which I wet whilst shopping. Then at the check out I pushed a little, and by the time I had walked back to the car it was full. At that time I wasn’t used to sitting on my mess, so getting into the car, and driving home was an adventure.
Then, unloading my groceries, putting everything way, whist wearing my full diaper was another new experience.
Much time has passed since then. Mostly now I mess wearing a pull up - they just hold my poo so much better that a bigger, baggier diaper. And because of the close fit any unpleasant odours are well contained. Which allows me to do so much without causing embarrassment to myself or others.
I have also got so much better at cleaning myself, something that I used to hate
These days I mess myself as often as circumstances allow, which is fairly frequent. I do it for the pleasure I get, the feeling of naughtiness and excitement as my poo slowly fills my pull up, sitting and feeling my poo settle between my bum cheeks, staying messed for as long as possible (very occasionally staying in my dirty diaper when I go to bed, walking my dog going to my local shops or supermarket). Of course going “out & about” is only possible so long as any smell is contained. So, for me, it is a fetish that I have found I can manage alongside a “normal” life.
One memory is going to the supermarket, knowing I would mess myself. I put on a diaper, which I wet whilst shopping. Then at the check out I pushed a little, and by the time I had walked back to the car it was full. At that time I wasn’t used to sitting on my mess, so getting into the car, and driving home was an adventure.
Then, unloading my groceries, putting everything way, whist wearing my full diaper was another new experience.
Much time has passed since then. Mostly now I mess wearing a pull up - they just hold my poo so much better that a bigger, baggier diaper. And because of the close fit any unpleasant odours are well contained. Which allows me to do so much without causing embarrassment to myself or others.
I have also got so much better at cleaning myself, something that I used to hate
These days I mess myself as often as circumstances allow, which is fairly frequent. I do it for the pleasure I get, the feeling of naughtiness and excitement as my poo slowly fills my pull up, sitting and feeling my poo settle between my bum cheeks, staying messed for as long as possible (very occasionally staying in my dirty diaper when I go to bed, walking my dog going to my local shops or supermarket). Of course going “out & about” is only possible so long as any smell is contained. So, for me, it is a fetish that I have found I can manage alongside a “normal” life.
