Sick and alone

I'm sick as I write this. I'm full of cold meds and off work. Laying in bed with chills. Decided to diaper up and wear my onesie and snuggle up with my sloth stuffie because I really needed some comfort and safety.been laying here watching cartoons on my phone and suddenly I start feeling a little crampy. I relax and fill my diaper with warm pee. After the flow stopped I still felt like I had to go so I started pushing a bit to get the flow going again. Not even expecting it cause I was so focused on peeing while laying on my back that I pushed out a full soft load into my diaper. Now I'm nice and warm with a wet and messy diaper feeling all cozy and comfy and don't know whether to reach for my vibrator or just let myself drift off to sleep! I'm loving the feeling but dread the cleanup that will definitely come later and really wishing I had someone to change me!