Pleasure v. shame
As a young boy, I wet the bed every night. Literally wet the bed, since I didn't wear diapers past infancy. Eventually shame developed when I realized kids my age typically didn't wet their beds. Guilt also was a problem for me, since my hot hated "those peepee sheets!"
Sometimes I would partially wake up needing to pee and think that it was okay to urinate there in my bed. The sensation of hot pee spreading beneath my body as I lay on my tummy was wonderful! When I woke up fully, I felt ashamed and helpless to stop. After all, in my mind at the time, I thought that wetting was the right thing to do. Many years later I realized that the youthful rationalization that allowed me to experience the pleasure of hot urine on my body was similar to the rationalization of an alcoholic that one little drink wouldn't hurt.
Fast forward to 2009, when WetSet.net introduced me to adults who wore diapers for fun. I discovered my inner diaper lover. Diapers allowed me to experience the pleasure of relief and of hot urine on my body, but in a controlled way, a way that didn't involve wet pajamas and wet sheets. Without causing any extra work for anyone, diapered wetting no longer triggered feelings of guilt. As for shame, knowing that lots of other adults, both men and women, enjoyed wearing and wetting diapers, both awake and asleep, helped me get over the shame I felt at helpless wetting.
Wetting has become a very sensuous, pleasurable activity that I enjoy every day, without shame but still with the knowledge that most other adults would think me strange for indulging in such activity. Wetting is primarily a pleasure of the senses, rather than erotic for me. However, I've also found that chatting with other people about diapers and wetting creates an intimacy that can be profoundly erotic.
Sometimes I would partially wake up needing to pee and think that it was okay to urinate there in my bed. The sensation of hot pee spreading beneath my body as I lay on my tummy was wonderful! When I woke up fully, I felt ashamed and helpless to stop. After all, in my mind at the time, I thought that wetting was the right thing to do. Many years later I realized that the youthful rationalization that allowed me to experience the pleasure of hot urine on my body was similar to the rationalization of an alcoholic that one little drink wouldn't hurt.
Fast forward to 2009, when WetSet.net introduced me to adults who wore diapers for fun. I discovered my inner diaper lover. Diapers allowed me to experience the pleasure of relief and of hot urine on my body, but in a controlled way, a way that didn't involve wet pajamas and wet sheets. Without causing any extra work for anyone, diapered wetting no longer triggered feelings of guilt. As for shame, knowing that lots of other adults, both men and women, enjoyed wearing and wetting diapers, both awake and asleep, helped me get over the shame I felt at helpless wetting.
Wetting has become a very sensuous, pleasurable activity that I enjoy every day, without shame but still with the knowledge that most other adults would think me strange for indulging in such activity. Wetting is primarily a pleasure of the senses, rather than erotic for me. However, I've also found that chatting with other people about diapers and wetting creates an intimacy that can be profoundly erotic.
