Where can I find shoes (PLEASE DONT MAKE FUN OF MY SHOE SIZE!)?

I wear a size 13-14 and I absolutely REFUSE to buy men shoes. It's embarrassing and women snicker at me and called me a freak. I can't even find a size 13 at Payless. I was up buying men shoes. The cute fashionable shoes are always smaller and the shoes I get are dull and boring. I don't want grandma shoes! I blame my dad for getting big feet from him!