I've been looking at an old crush's photo while I use my prostate toys.
At the start of this year I ended up getting heavily into prostate play; I went from owning zero prostate toys, to owning 5 of them.
Eventually I ended up with a habit where I spontaneously end up using the photo of an old crush (who I haven't seen in over a decade) during my prostate play sessions. I will have her photo fullscreen on my tv for an entire session. It’s not a constant thing, I actually go weeks or months without doing it, and I actually tend to have sessions without her photo more often. The urge to use her photos is honestly very sporadic, coming out of nowhere.
I can't really give a concrete answer as to why but I've come to admit that I actually love doing this. I love seeing the expression in her photo; it makes me feel like somehow she’s glad I’m experiencing the intense orgasms or feel like she's literally the reason why I'm having the orgasms.
I have to admit the thing that bothers me about all this is the fact that I'm doing this while being in a relationship that I honestly am very happy with. I also honestly know that I’ll never be with the old crush, and I don’t want to but I really do just love using her photo in my prostate play sessions. When I do it, it feels amazing, yet afterward, I wonder a lot if I’m honestly just crazy or a terrible significant other.
Despite all those negative factors I still will admit that I love doing this and don’t want to stop.
Has anyone ever heard of or found themselves in a similar situation...? Does all this just make me crazy? Does it make me a terrible SO?
Eventually I ended up with a habit where I spontaneously end up using the photo of an old crush (who I haven't seen in over a decade) during my prostate play sessions. I will have her photo fullscreen on my tv for an entire session. It’s not a constant thing, I actually go weeks or months without doing it, and I actually tend to have sessions without her photo more often. The urge to use her photos is honestly very sporadic, coming out of nowhere.
I can't really give a concrete answer as to why but I've come to admit that I actually love doing this. I love seeing the expression in her photo; it makes me feel like somehow she’s glad I’m experiencing the intense orgasms or feel like she's literally the reason why I'm having the orgasms.
I have to admit the thing that bothers me about all this is the fact that I'm doing this while being in a relationship that I honestly am very happy with. I also honestly know that I’ll never be with the old crush, and I don’t want to but I really do just love using her photo in my prostate play sessions. When I do it, it feels amazing, yet afterward, I wonder a lot if I’m honestly just crazy or a terrible significant other.
Despite all those negative factors I still will admit that I love doing this and don’t want to stop.
Has anyone ever heard of or found themselves in a similar situation...? Does all this just make me crazy? Does it make me a terrible SO?
