I feel a little sad

I know my aunt was trying to bring family back together, like her father, or my mother's father did. After years of hiatus, outside a wedding, or a surprise, even though I somewhat appreciated it this way. I told myself, you have to see family, see them for their virtue. With how I am that meant, ways to make promises to yourself, asked my siblings could I ride with them, it only made sense.

I had a weird feeling it wouldn't happen before. Somewhere, I expected me. I learned last night my aunt is in the hospital