Thus concludes my first full day with my daughter where nobody is coming home at the end of the day
I didn't realize this was a first for me. I mean of course I know how to take care of Naya alone, I do it all the time. But her mom has always come home at the end of the day. When we first split up last year & I stayed at my dad's for a month, I had my family around. I still had Naya 50/50 & I took care of her on my own but still.. there were other people coming home at the end of the day. Dad, stepmom, a few brothers, & a sister.
Days ago, I helped Naya's mom move out. Our apartment lease ends next week so I'll be moving out this weekend. It's currently my weekend off, I'm back to work on Sunday night & I won't have enough time after that, so I gotta do it this weekend.
We're still planning on 50/50 with Naya. I'll get her Wed/Thurs-Sun every week. I work Sunday(night)-Wed every week so basically I get to work full time for half the week & still be a full time dad for the other half of the week. So I have her right now.
I'm not immediately able to get myself an apartment. I will in a couple months though, maybe 3 at most. My dad & stepmom have opened their doors to me to stay there & help me when it comes to picking up or dropping off Naya when it's my time with her, even if I'm at work. Which is the biggest blessing & I can't thank my family enough for not just caring & understanding, but mostly just loving my daughter & wanting to help. I hate that I have to take steps backwards but I know I'm doing the right things.
I'm figuring out a lot as I go but I have been trying to prepare as best as possible. I saved up some money already but I had to dip into that by a few hundred today for some necessities since I had no idea my kid's mom was suddenly moving out a few days ago. She took stuff like the bed, half the groceries, & we didn't sort out Naya's toys so she accidentally has the majority of them plus ALL of her books.
I realize I've never bought Naya any books though so I got her a bunch that showed up today. The toys are no worry, I'll get some back. I got a self inflatable air mattress for now but I got a queen size so Naya & I can share it until I drop over $500 on our beds later. I ordered groceries last night that showed up in the morning. Then today we went to the store next door where I got us more things & she picked out snacks she wanted. She chose Annie's cheddar bunnies, raspberries, Tillamook snack cheeses, & cookie dough ice cream. Spoiled ass baby 😂 I gotta learn to say no probably lol she just points at stuff she likes, names it or asks to hug it, & I fold 😭
Since I work nights shifts, it's normal for me to put her to bed late when I'm off work. Not as late as I go to sleep, but at least 11pm or midnight. That way she wakes up around noon & I get enough sleepy time. Because on my work days I work 9pm to 7am so I don't make her FULLY shift to my schedule (since her mom works days) I just shift her by a couple hours.
Anywho.. it was a good day. Part of me feels sad that this is a first for me but part of me feels proud & confident in myself that I can take care of my daughter alone with nobody else coming home at the end of the day. I already believed in myself but it helps a lot more to get a taste of it & be like "oh... I can do this"
Days ago, I helped Naya's mom move out. Our apartment lease ends next week so I'll be moving out this weekend. It's currently my weekend off, I'm back to work on Sunday night & I won't have enough time after that, so I gotta do it this weekend.
We're still planning on 50/50 with Naya. I'll get her Wed/Thurs-Sun every week. I work Sunday(night)-Wed every week so basically I get to work full time for half the week & still be a full time dad for the other half of the week. So I have her right now.
I'm not immediately able to get myself an apartment. I will in a couple months though, maybe 3 at most. My dad & stepmom have opened their doors to me to stay there & help me when it comes to picking up or dropping off Naya when it's my time with her, even if I'm at work. Which is the biggest blessing & I can't thank my family enough for not just caring & understanding, but mostly just loving my daughter & wanting to help. I hate that I have to take steps backwards but I know I'm doing the right things.
I'm figuring out a lot as I go but I have been trying to prepare as best as possible. I saved up some money already but I had to dip into that by a few hundred today for some necessities since I had no idea my kid's mom was suddenly moving out a few days ago. She took stuff like the bed, half the groceries, & we didn't sort out Naya's toys so she accidentally has the majority of them plus ALL of her books.
I realize I've never bought Naya any books though so I got her a bunch that showed up today. The toys are no worry, I'll get some back. I got a self inflatable air mattress for now but I got a queen size so Naya & I can share it until I drop over $500 on our beds later. I ordered groceries last night that showed up in the morning. Then today we went to the store next door where I got us more things & she picked out snacks she wanted. She chose Annie's cheddar bunnies, raspberries, Tillamook snack cheeses, & cookie dough ice cream. Spoiled ass baby 😂 I gotta learn to say no probably lol she just points at stuff she likes, names it or asks to hug it, & I fold 😭
Since I work nights shifts, it's normal for me to put her to bed late when I'm off work. Not as late as I go to sleep, but at least 11pm or midnight. That way she wakes up around noon & I get enough sleepy time. Because on my work days I work 9pm to 7am so I don't make her FULLY shift to my schedule (since her mom works days) I just shift her by a couple hours.
Anywho.. it was a good day. Part of me feels sad that this is a first for me but part of me feels proud & confident in myself that I can take care of my daughter alone with nobody else coming home at the end of the day. I already believed in myself but it helps a lot more to get a taste of it & be like "oh... I can do this"
