does my mother, who i adore, not love me as much as i thought she did
i've always had a strong closeness with my mother, a very strong bond and attachment to my mother, to the point it has been hard to let go of her a lot through my life, unfortunately throughout my life i have had very severe mental health problems to cope with....and as close as me and my mum are, there's been many of times where we had big rows, and big emotional upsets and fallouts...but we always made up again and were once again close with each other.
but there's been many of times in life where i've leaned on my mum for support, as i'm highly dependent on my mum, and i felt she didn't show enough love, support and validation of me?...and i don't really know why that is?
my mother didn't have an easy life growing up and experienced quite a lot of trauma in her life, but she came through her adversities and turned out a success, she brought me up very well....spoiled me and overly mothered me.
but as i previously mentioned, there has been times i felt she didn't love me enough, support me or validate me as much as i needed?
and i'm unsure now as a middle aged male how i should feel about that, is my mother not the loving fully supportive mother that i thought? or am i wrong and have to take into account she is only a human being and has had her problems too and is not perfect, as i'm not and the rest of humanity?
but there's been many of times in life where i've leaned on my mum for support, as i'm highly dependent on my mum, and i felt she didn't show enough love, support and validation of me?...and i don't really know why that is?
my mother didn't have an easy life growing up and experienced quite a lot of trauma in her life, but she came through her adversities and turned out a success, she brought me up very well....spoiled me and overly mothered me.
but as i previously mentioned, there has been times i felt she didn't love me enough, support me or validate me as much as i needed?
and i'm unsure now as a middle aged male how i should feel about that, is my mother not the loving fully supportive mother that i thought? or am i wrong and have to take into account she is only a human being and has had her problems too and is not perfect, as i'm not and the rest of humanity?
46-50, M
