overthinking alittle too much

How do I put my non verbal back into school, he cries bc he cant explain things to me and nowadays i try to be patient but God knows im scared . I had a social worker tell me that thrir is services for him but i cried and told her ... every waking second im worried .. im worried somtjing could happen and then what. what is anyone gonna tell me if i crash out.. i have no one to call if something happened to me .. ithis week my goal is to see if i can speak to a social worker for my son to guide me to put him somewhere comfortable. I havrnt had a break in a year or worked.. which is so sad.i know i need things like clothes im tired of wearing the same thing and only having welfare send me a couple dollar for the main important things like pampers toilet paper etc..its just not enough.This is so hard