scared of dying alone

I think a lot of us face that possibility.

I wish knew what the answer is.

It's just that once we are in our 40's, it is a little late to try to start a family or new career. Even if we want to it's not like we have the motivation or energy to really do so. Yeah there are stories of people twice our age who have done it but that is the exception for sure.

Maybe things happen in our 50's or beyond that we cannot foresee right now.

I hate to say but I imagine my future self as being some old decrepit nobody rotting away in a nursing home just waiting to die.

This may not help but when you said you are 44, my knee-jerk thought was, "he is a little younger than me." Never thought I would have to say that about someone.

I have faced the fact that I will most likely die alone and I am okay with that. My journey here will be ending but another one begins. Of this I know without doubt, for it has been proven to me by someone very dear. I don't necessarily believe in heaven and hell as the bible describes it. But I know there is more to life than here and now.
I am not afraid death , I am afraid of getting old. I refuse to regress to a state of near infantile abilities for in that , is no quality of life. When that time is getting near I will chose to travel on, on my own terms.
Try to find peace with yourself and where you are in life. Realize that you probably won't finish or accomplish everything that you may have dreamed of and that's okay. Make the most of the time you have left, don't dwell on regrets and appreciate the time you had here on earth.
Bless you and Good luck .

I have the same worry but it is what it is