Daughters that lost their moms or abandoned by them, do you get envious/jealous or sad when you see other girls and women bonding with their moms?

I do and it sucks. I watch them bond and I don't have a mom anymore. I don't me to sound brutally blunt, but it makes me sick to my stomach when I see girls and women with their loving mother's. I'm happy they still have their moms but I get angry and sad when I see it.
I WANT MY MOM BACK! 😭😭😭😭😭😭