IVF emotionality

I did 3 IVF cycles. The first IVF, i had 5 embryos that were not tested. They put the embryos in my body but I did not get pregnant. 2nd IVF cycles, I had 2 embryos that were tested and only 1 was viable. They put it in my body and the initial test showed I was pregnant but as the days wore on and I kept doing the pregnancy test, it was showing that I was not pregnant. I did the 3rd IVF cycle, they had 12 eggs and 2 embryos made it to the blastocsyt phase. They did the test of the embryo if they are genetically good. I am so devastated. I was positive that this will be the last IVF i had to go through but now i dont know what to do. I know I have other options that I can do such as donor eggs or adopting but I dont know how to proceed. I really wanted our own baby and the 3 IVF cycle has been such a financial burden for us. I dont know what to do. Can anybody offer me any advice or some positive outlooks?

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ABCDEF7 · M

Finally it's your decision, which you have to take depending on your priorities and feasibility. I personally believe in giving something to this world, that gives me satisfaction and happiness.

Best Wishes. :)

NYBagels

@ABCDEF7 Thanks for your insight. At this point, i feel like I don't know what i want. I think inside I am angry and bitter but I do not know how to let it out because I am afraid that I may be slipping into a black hole and may not be able to pull myself together. I feel like I do not have the time to feel sorry for myself or process my disappointment.

ABCDEF7 · M

{{hugs}} @NYBagels Sometimes we keep searching for happiness in the things & people. But we don't understand the real happiness is within us. We can't be happy unless we feel to be happy. And one can choose to be happy in whatever circumstances they are. You can find a persons to be happy even if they are not having wealth, or if they are not having a child, or even if someone is not having limbs or eyesight. Similarly you can find people to be disappointed/depressed/etc even if they are having everything in their life.

The HAPPIEST People DO NOT Necessarily have "BEST" THINGS in Life, They Simply APPRECIATE the Things They Have.

This article may help you look yourself and your problems in a different manner.
https://similarworlds.com/5944873-I-Believe-Life-Is-a-Life-Long-Lesson/1786938-Meditation-is-Experience-Experiencing-who-you