My Mother

If past time comes
I'll see you waiting
There's a lot that I have to think of
Because I am tired

I suppose so
Once in a while,
in order to abandon you,
We're going to have to move farther apart
But this pain becomes a burden the more I try to forget you

Your eyes have grown so cold again
Your sharp tongue digs into me, please stop
I can’t take it anymore

Love, it's all gone
You and me, beautiful memories we never had
I've buried those horrific memories with fake memories so I can go on living
Though you had the time to spend with me, you decided to make my little heart shatter
I don't need you, my heart has had enough of your pain
Stay away from me so you never get close to my loved ones and poison them with your manipulation
Leave my side so I can live happily

Just stay there, just like that
I'm not sorry that you miss me
You were supposed to love me but alcohol and s*x became more important
You sold your right to be your mother the moment we were born

I spent my time like a fool

Once again, my thoughts are trapped
I hate it to death
I'll find you again even if you're all empty
Though I took the time not to come back
I need you
Stay with me
Stay by my side

Just stay that way, just like that
You were supposed to believe me
What more do you want from me?
I've given your body to you for your pleasure, just leave me alone

Do you miss me? The one who died back then?
That fool who came back to you no matter how much you toyed with my body and my sanity
I am not that fool no more

You can cause me more pains
I don't have to cry any more to shield your biting words from my heart
What have I come to?
Is it okay for me to cry like back then?

You will be abandoned
You're a useless toy to me that has lost its value
Once I get sick of you, it's over