My parents think of me?

@Bearo I'm sorry! I have a son that won't speak to me! He can be agre with me, but he doesn't have to let that stand in the way of our relationship. Difference in opinion does not have to alienate

@JoanieNewHampshire That sucks... Sorry about that, my brother hates my dad and so does most people, but somehow I forgave him, I just want to have a dad.. Tired of having no family.. I just wish he wouldn't have rejected me when I came to him after all he's done.. But I suppose I can't change that sadly.. Once again I feel ya about your situation

People can be diffecult! Keep your heart open, I do mine, fill your life with love and joy and give it to others, I do. One day it might all come together. Or maybe it won't, but you are here and now. I wait with open arms for my son. That's all I can do.

@JoanieNewHampshire You sure do that while his life is still long, sadly I can't do that anymore, I kept my arms open to all, for a long time, everyone rejected me, now I closed up myself after I opened up to people, it's useless, there is nobody who understands, and the last thing that I can do now is just to close myself and create a new life story for people and die with the pain and bother on the inside as I already do everyday.

Not the last thing! Love all accept all is the last thing! We choose to close because it hurts. Being open doesn't garrantee we won't be hurt but closing ourselves off guarantees we won't be loved @Bearo

@JoanieNewHampshire I wish I could see it the way you do, but not when I already tried to and nothing happened for a long time, I'm all alone, and that's how I'm gonna be mostly, I'm just dying on the inside, but nobody really cares so it's okay I suppose..

Didn't I just show you that I cared! Very often we put our selves in a place less then ourselves and that's not who we are. If you want change, you have to make it,@Bearo

@JoanieNewHampshire I already did, I made a change, a huge change, I saw no outcome of it, I'm back to point one, I ran out of options i fell off point one

Change never happens when you expect it to@Bearo