Christmas is supposed to be good

But that was the day my mom died. Sad time of the year for me. I try to be happy. it's pretty hard. I love my adopted family. And I am grateful for them adopting me. I'm starting to forget my mom's face. And I feel that I'm horrible sometimes because it's difficult to remember. Idk. I try my best to do things for others on that day.

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REMsleep · 41-45, F

Your feelings are normal. Can you incorporate a new tradition of remembering your mom at Christmas with your adopted family.
Like during the year find out new things about your mom. Interview a friend of hers or her family. Find out where she went to school and share that presentation with your family or watch her favorite movie together with your adopted family.

GeorgeBongTrillionsXXX · 31-35, M

@REMsleep My mom died when I was 8. My adopted family make it a point to tell me that my mom was no good. so that's out of the question. I know she was killed by a DD on Christmas. and that's about it. Other than that, no idea. My adopted fam make it a point to never bring it up or discuss it at all.

REMsleep · 41-45, F

@GeorgeBongTrillionsXXX Most people are neither bad nor good but a combination of both. Its not right for them to badmouth her since you are her son and she died but if they took good care of you please forgive them. Perhaps from their point of view she wasn't good.
You can find out alot about her from the internet.
Where is your bio dad? Her extended family? Her former friends?
If you are up for research you can find out stuff. Researching stuff is kinda a hobby for me. If you want help dm me.

GeorgeBongTrillionsXXX · 31-35, M

@REMsleep I would like to. But that would hurt my adopted parents. I know they say some stuff I don't like, but they're my family now. My dad abandoned me and my mom when I was four.

REMsleep · 41-45, F

@GeorgeBongTrillionsXXX Well you have to live life the best that you can, so I won't pressure you one way or the other but if your family loves you then they have to accept you wanting to know your heritage.
Love should be mostly unconditional. That means that they will still love you even when you do something that they dont like.
The people who knew your mom are only getting older and moving farther away so if you know that one day you want to pursue things I wouldn't wait too long. You probably have a half bro or sis from your dad side.

GeorgeBongTrillionsXXX · 31-35, M

@REMsleep Sometimes not knowing is the best option. I was told that he had the option to see me before a few years after getting adopted. He was offered the choice of keeping in contact with me, or taking a hefty sum to disappear. instead of wanting to see me, he chose the money option to never be seen or heard from again.

REMsleep · 41-45, F

@GeorgeBongTrillionsXXX That may be true but you won't ever know what really happened or what he was thinking unless you speak with him and form your own opinions.
Also any other children of his would be innocent in this so connecting with a sister or brother really has nothing to do with his character.

GeorgeBongTrillionsXXX · 31-35, M

@REMsleep he's into drugs. as my A-parents would say. a junkie. no other known siblings.

Chanelcoco · 51-55, F

@GeorgeBongTrillionsXXX
Hello sweetheart
Your dad ran away from a baby. It would have been any baby.