I Love My Mother

When I was little I had my mother with me everyday every single day of my life I loved her so much but I never bothered myself to tell her that I love her..I was a bad girl who always put my mother in a lot of trouble and embarrass her haha I was my mom favorite girl since I was the youngest 😜 Even tho I was a trouble maker I dunno how she handled me tbh every time I did something bad she would just smile at me and talk to me calmly but I could see that sad face behind that smile that always made me feel guilty and jump on her crying saying that I'm sorry my mom was so nice lovely and patient I used to sleep with her at night hugging her till I fall asleep she was a mother of 8 girls my dad was out a lot so she used to take care of us all alone but I have never heard her complain I always see her smiling always well sadly my parents and my oldest sis died in a car accident when I was 7 and now ? I regret all the time I didn't spend with her even tho she was with me everyday when she was alive...when they told me that she died I was just 7 that was a shock I didn't understand I didn't even cry I cried when my older sis said after days of their death : "when they took her dead body out the car they saw her smiling"