i don't believe i could carry on

[c=BF6900][i]if my wonderful mother were to pass on? i have always been close to my mother, she over protected me as a child and it has been that way ever since, my mum and my dad are my only real support network...and they are both elderly now, my mum is older, she is doing well for her age...but soon gets tired now.....my parents live far from me, i live alone in a little flat, dealing with my mental problems mainly by myself, my mum and dad phone me several times a day, to give me support and emotional support.

when i think of my mum leaving me in this weird alien world we have now, it feels me with devastation terror and panic and fear, i honestly don't believe i could carry on without my mother...my childhood dream was to find a partner, a girlfriend but that never happened because i had so many problems..

as a middle aged adult, i still rely on my mother heavily for support, comfort etc, as i always have done really, and i panic when i talk to my mum on the phone and she sounds tired, she has been like a therapist to me all my life, better than any psychologist ive seen, my mum is a star.

does anyone know how i can cope with life as my mother is getting older?[/i][/c]