I sabotage myself and my potential friendships/relationships but I don't really know why.

I'm aware I do it. If anyone here has ever gotten a private message from me, I am trying hard to connect. While also wanting to run screaming to the delusion of safety. Which is what I normally do. I can't let anyone in. I can't remember why I stopped. I've been through my fair share of effed up disappointments over the past decade. I keep getting colder and more alone. But this isn't really me. Or is this me, now...

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OlderSometimesWiser · F

When one goes through enough trauma and pain, they oftentimes start to go through life like this. Because it may feel like they just can’t withstand anymore psychological torment. To once again trust and have a wiling spirit is certainly within the realm of possibility but it’s a risky proposition and can be a tough and challenging road back.