I was trying to set a boundary
I’m not the sort of person you “kill loneliness” with.
“Do you even genuinely enjoy my company?” I asked.
I’m just the person reached out to when someone is feeling low and desperately lonely. And I want to do what I can to help. But it hit me that every time I try to talk to or hang out with that person, it’s ignored. Then when they’re going through a hard time, that’s when they talk to me again.
“You make it sound like I use people.”
Well, it seems like you do.
“Sorry to bother you. I won’t anymore,” they said.
So I said goodbye too. This is the second “friendship” I’ve ended for this in the past year.
Maybe I handled it wrong. Maybe I saw it wrong. But it’s tiring being ignored and disregarded until a person wants to emotionally dump on someone. I’m not willing to be that someone anymore. I’m not wrong for wanting to be around people who actually like talking with and hanging out with me. Otherwise, I can be lonely just fine by myself.
“Do you even genuinely enjoy my company?” I asked.
I’m just the person reached out to when someone is feeling low and desperately lonely. And I want to do what I can to help. But it hit me that every time I try to talk to or hang out with that person, it’s ignored. Then when they’re going through a hard time, that’s when they talk to me again.
“You make it sound like I use people.”
Well, it seems like you do.
“Sorry to bother you. I won’t anymore,” they said.
So I said goodbye too. This is the second “friendship” I’ve ended for this in the past year.
Maybe I handled it wrong. Maybe I saw it wrong. But it’s tiring being ignored and disregarded until a person wants to emotionally dump on someone. I’m not willing to be that someone anymore. I’m not wrong for wanting to be around people who actually like talking with and hanging out with me. Otherwise, I can be lonely just fine by myself.
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