I Want to Be In a Healthy Loving Relationship

I really hope I have that special someone one day. I am not looking or anything, but I will have that special someone again someday. I want to be able to have a healthy, loving relationship. I know relationships have conflicts so yeah. I haven't dated since I was 21 almost 22 so in 2011 somewhat. I'm 30 now and still single. I don't wanna be pushed into dating when I'm not ready. I'm still not ready for a serious commitment yes, but my heart tells me I should try dating again. I want to date again, but still not ready. I don't know what is wrong with me.
I don't wanna lead guys one so I was honest about them not interested or giving them my number. I don't wanna say yes to make them happy of I don't mean it and hurt them. I don't know what to do. I have my studies to worry about right now. I mean I still like being single and the freedom, but it doesn't mean I wanna end up alone.
I hope he'll accept my Aspergers.